i dislike myself.
temperamental self.
indecisive self.
hot tempered self.
no self controlled self.

and,
somehow no matter how i try
and even if i do succeed
it's only temporary
because,
i feel disheartened when i don't receive approval.
and i'll be back to square one.
indulgence in self pity.

just a note.
call me strange or whatever.
i don't like people's how are yous, are you oks. these general vague statements.
i know its concern.
but hey, it's tiring to answer this questions when i don't want to answer these questions.
cos, i do not know how to reply.
is yes the politically right answer? but don't people ask these qns when they see that you are not ok and thus they want you to tell them that you are ok so that they will not be worried but they will still worry when you say you are ok as they know you are not ok.
so, i don't like.

ahh. this post is weird. a post more about me.heh.don't ask me what happen or anything ya. nothing happen. just didn't feel like studying and i start writing crap. the end.